hallo friend

dude i totally forgot about this thing yo

all i ever wanted part6

I figured the only reason for me doing this was because I wanted to be happy.
I don’t think that’s a crime.
I…being the way I am has given me such a perspective on life. Like, I know no one would ever really love me.
I’m not even sure if I love me.
But I still pretend.

I did this thinking it’d be really easy.
And… I mean, I guess it was.
I… I don’t know what I wouldn’t have done, I mean I basically was praying that this would happen.
I knew it would happen.

There was one person, I can think of actually, who did chance me for friendship. I was really happy about that.
But…he…he was just playing me.
He only did it because he lost a bet with his friends.
I still forgave him. For some reason, like…it was beneath me to deny him like that. I mean I genuinely thought he…I guess I thought he liked being my friend.
I didn’t …I mean I stopped talking to him for a while after that.
But now…
Guess who’s the father?
I don’t expect him to stay with me. I’ve heard all of those teenage preganancy stories. For what it’s worth I’m just happy to have someone I can love- and teach to love me back.
That’s, like, all I ever wanted.
Just to be loved.

ugh pattys bored!

rokettu:

geez this is where that whole make friends on tumblr thing would come in handy

but no one talks to me

or really seems to respond back

…forever alone…

*pic not mine*